Negative $203.54 in the bank, 2000 more miles put on my car, and the best month I've had in years. I'm finally home in Coral Springs after what seems like forever. I left my house on December 28th, 2009. It's now January 21st, 2010 and I am finally home. It started off as a 3 day trip to Orlando to watch the Champs Sports bowl. Unfortunately the Miami Hurricanes lost. I wasn't going to let that spoil the trip though. I knew that I was down to my last couple hundred dollars, unsure of unemployment, only sure that I didn't want to go home and be miserable looking for another job that I would hate. So the adolescent side of me took over and I drove to Tallahassee. Got some tattoo work done, hung out there for New Years Eve with some of the best friends I have. I didn't get to kiss anyone at midnight which was a bummer but I got my kiss the next day. I took off for Chattanooga, TN to see my old roommate. I had no idea how long I would end up staying. I thought it was only going to be for a few days. I ended up staying almost 2 weeks. Surviving off of Ramen and Dollar Menu food, I was happy. I got to wake up next to someone every morning and it felt amazing. I considered looking for a job and starting over there, but I had too much going on back home. So I spent as much money as I could afford to, leaving just enough to make it back to Florida. On the way home I stopped in Orlando again, sleeping on one of my friend's couches for a few days. I came home for 2 nights, getting a ride from my friend Jake and leaving my car in Orlando so I had an excuse to go back. I went up there and ended up staying another 4 days until I had to head home today. That's where I am now.
I came home stressed because of money, only to find both my W-2's waiting for me. Finally some kind of money coming in. I also made a call to my 401k and discovered that Red Bull had been investing for me while I worked there and I was entitled to 1000 dollars. Being in the situation I'm in right now, I made the decision to take that out. So I'll be getting that next week. I'm also going to try and get the Overdraft fees taken off of my bank account. I think its ridiculous that they charge me 35 dollars for a 3 dollar car wash and 10 dollars from sunpass. Why not just decline the transactions? What's the point of having an available balance if its not accurate? Doesn't make sense to me. So hopefully I can get those taken off. I still have that stupid car payment to make and I'm a month behind which sucks. But at least I'm not stressed about it anymore. I'm going to have money in my account and that's what matters.
Now that I am getting my financial situation taken care of, I can focus on other things like getting a job and more importantly, music. My Complex Island has been recording for the past month at my house and it sounds awesome. I am really surprised at how good the quality is. I opened up my own recording studio and am gonna start recording local bands that want to demo. It's pretty legit and way cheaper than anywhere else around here. I also got a random text about a week ago with an offer that I couldn't refuse. I will know for sure by the end of next month if its going to happen. It will be life changing and I couldn't be more stoked on it.
Since my last post I have discovered certain things that have changed my opinions on certain people. I found out something that devastated me for a little bit, but I got over it. It turned from depression to anger, from anger to hate, and finally I feel nothing towards it. In the past couple months I have rid myself of a few people that were not worth my time or effort. I have found it easier to accept things for what they are and not dwell on failed relationships. Finally learning that life goes on and actually believing it. I mean last month was rough for me. Losing my job, finding out the things I did about some people, one person in particular, debt, uncertainty about anything, it all added up. I almost broke down. If it wasn't for my friends I would've been in a very bad spot right now. I have never felt so much love in my life and it feels amazing. I know that everything is going to be ok now. It was hard to actually believe that before when I would say it, but now I feel it. The fact that I don't have a job, I don't know when I'll have a steady paycheck, I don't know what's going to happen with my car that I can't afford, doesn't effect me anymore. I'm not stressed about it. It feels like a weight is off of my shoulder.
I had a lot of time to think on the long drives that I made. I decided I'm going to go to Cosmetology school to be a hair stylist when I'm done with the music career. I mean I'm not going to try and make a living off of playing drums forever. There's a certain window that you just have to think realistically in. I think I have a few more years of this, but if nothing changes from this within that time, I have my back up plan. I can take out loans and grants, and its a job that my tattoos won't effect. I've already talked to a few friends that went to different schools and got a couple opinions. It looks promising.
So as of now the plan is to just keep following my dream. Between My Complex Island and the opportunities that this recording should bring, and the other band that I might be working with, I should have a pretty solid future for a while. Taking a step back from the females and not searching for that anymore. I had an amazing time in Tennessee with someone but that distance is too much right now. Things might change later this year if she moves back home. I also hung out with someone from my past in Orlando last week, we talked a lot, I thought that maybe something could come of it, but we both wanted different things. It got complicated and things just didn't work out the way I'd hoped, but its ok. So now I'm back to having no one and I'm perfectly ok with that. I've got so much other stuff going on right now that keeps my mind off of it. When the right person comes along, I'll know.
m.ui.yu
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