Introduction

So I've never been much of a writer, never had the time, or the attention span to actually sit down and write all my thoughts onto a blog or journal. I usually write pointless Myspace bulletins that vaguely describe how I'm feeling or what I'm thinking. It was my only outlet until this. I figured Livejournal is pretty outdated so why not. I'm sure if you are actually going to take the time to read this, you probably already know me. But for those of you who don't, My name is Peter Vazquez, I'm a 23 year old Cuban-American, even though I probably look middle-eastern whenever I don't shave. Both my parents were born in Cuba, but met here in the states. I was born in Fort Lauderdale, FL, in 1986. I've lived in South Florida all of my life, mostly Broward County, but I have ventured up to Palm Beach, and Dade. Right now I currently live in Coral Springs, hopefully not much longer than till the end of this year. I need to move more North because I work in West Palm Beach. I've worked for Red Bull Energy Drink for the past 2 years. Distributing product, delivering coolers, doing warehouse stuff, things of that nature. As I write this, I'm on tour with my band in Japan. Yeah, Japan. I've been playing drums since the age of 4 and it is safe to say that it is my life. If I didn't have this, I don't know where my life would've ended up. So I guess thats where I'll start the introduction into my life.

Bishop @ Solid Sound Studios, Pompano Beach, FL

I got my first drumset when I was 4 years old. It was one of those mini ones with the paper heads that I probably broke after a week of banging rhythmlessly like Animal from Sesame Street. Not long after I got my first Junior kit. I took lessons for about a month when I was 5 but I don't remember anything I learned. It cost too much money and I probably wasnt into it so my parents stop taking me. It wasn't till probably middle school that I started playing seriously. I joined my first band in 8th grade, "Bonus Room". Worst band name ever and we played one song over and over, not an original and I'm too ashamed to say what it was. But a couple months later me and the guitarist, who was the only other member of the band, found a singer, who eventually picked up bass, and we became Something From Nothing. That band lasted a couple years through high school and then we disbanded when we all started to have different musical tastes and wanted to do other things. I was in a bunch of bands after that, trying to find where I fit well. The only one that actually did anything worth mentioning was The Big Screen. I recorded my first full length album with them and did a bunch of U.S. tours. It was fun, but faded out when we got older, families started, members moved to different states. Not long after that I joined the current band I'm in now, Bishop, or as we are commonly known, xBishopx. You are not supposed to pronounce the x's, but people do. I laugh. I've been in this band longer than probably any other band I've ever been in. It has helped me see things and go place that I would have never gotten the chance to see if I hadn't been involved with it. For instance, We did some U.S. touring, Costa Rica, now I'm in Japan, and I'm going to Austrailia from here. Its kind of surreal. But I am thankful for the once in a lifetime opportunities I have been given. Who I am thankful to...well thats still something I am trying to figure out myself.

The Big Screen @ Sportsplex, Coral Springs, FL

Veritas @ Some bar in Stuart, FL (with Dale Jr. Obviously)

Bishop in Costa Rica (With Mike C, and Derek Zipp)

Vultures @ Goo, Miami, FL

My Complex Island

Religion has never been a huge thing to me. As a kid I was forced to go to church, but never to Catholic school or anything that serious. My parents gave up after so many Sunday morning temper tantrums about not wanting to go. For a while, I considered a lot of things, I didn't believe in God, didn't follow a religion, didn't really care. I never wanted the choice to be forced on me. A couple years ago while touring with some of my best friends, I got turned on to some books. They were interesting, still nothing to change my mind on any of it, but they opened my eyes up a little. It wasn't till I went through a rough spot, where I felt I had nothing left to try, that I gave God a chance. My girlfriend at the time had a very religious mother who I still keep in contact with and I will always care for deeply, who prayed for me and helped me through a lot of things. I still don't follow a religion, but I do believe there is a God. As far as Jesus and all that, still undecided on that subject. It doesn't help that whenever you open up to the idea, you have people around you making you feel like you're an idiot. But when I figure it out, I won't change my views for anyone.

Straight Edge

I don't want this part to be long, or preachy, because I know that most people that have the same views that I do, usually preach, and are dicks about it. But I'm not like them. I hate being grouped in with them also. They are the reason that this "lifestyle" has gone to shit. With that said, I am Straight Edge. I think saying that is so fucking retarded, but its easier than explaining that I don't smoke, drink, do drugs, and I don't sleep around. But saying that I'm edge automatically puts a label on me, and I'm judged, because a bunch of other idiots have ruined it for me. It has become a joke, and it has also made the few of us that actually do it correctly, look like a bunch of fakes. People will claim and then within a week be snorting coke off some table at some party, or drinking some form of alcohol while trying to bang some slutty broad they met the same day. Its ridiculous, and it makes me look like I will just turn into one of them. Well I've been this way since 2001. 9th grade of high school. I have my reasons as to why I live this way. Not ones that I feel the need to broadcast across the internet. But I do this for myself, because I choose to. I do not judge anyone for what they do. I do not try to force my beliefs on anyone else. Basically, I am not what people have come to think that being Straight Edge is. But I won't be one of those people that stops saying I am, just because of what other people have turned it into. I still have my beliefs and I will always live my life for me.

As for everything else, I guess there isn't much to it. I have to be thankful I'm alive. You never know what can happen. I'd like to say that I've lived life to the fullest with no regrets, but that would be a lie. I live everyday with some form of regret. Mostly the mistakes I've made.

I've been in love only once. I know this for a fact because it has been years and I still think about the person everyday. We were engaged, and it was the best time of my life, well, the good parts of it. I messed it up though. Being the idiot I am, I thought too much, and had my doubts, and made mistakes that I wish I could take back. Thats life. I feel like I've learned from those mistakes, but it sucked that I had to lose the only thing I've ever been sure of in my whole life. There have been a couple other times where I felt like I could be in love again, but compared to her, they were nothing. Only recently have I felt myself starting to feel that strongly for someone again. Its been a rollercoaster, but I haven't felt like this since, "The One". So maybe this will be my second chance. If I can get it to work. Somehow I always seem to mess it up, or I'm just not good enough. But for some reason, this one has stuck around and put up with my shit. And everyday I feel myself getting closer to that feeling. I don't know if its the same for her, but at times it seems like it, and then again, at times we want to kill each other. But isn't that how it works? The more you care about someone, the more chances they have to disappoint you, but if you love them, you deal with it and make it work. So I guess thats what we are trying to do, and though right now, we are in a rough spot, I know that if its meant to be, it will work out. I have to get back to the United States before that can even begin to be figured out. If you are reading this, you know who you are, I love you and miss you immensly, and most of all, I'm sorry for being a pain in the ass.

"The One"

I have some of the best friends in the world. Some of them don't live close to me, and it sucks that I don't get to see them that much, but I still love them all. They all have helped me out in times of need and I am forever thankful to them all. Hopefully when I get back I can make the trips to see them, Tallahassee, Orlando, and all over the U.S. Money is gonna be tight for the first couple weeks when I get home though, So I'll have to see.

Friends in Miami

Friends On Tour

I think we are about to pack up and head out of the place we are staying so I should probably end this now. I've probably bored you enough with this pointless information. But hey, if you made it this far, thank you, and I hope you enjoy the rest.

Me.