Monday, September 28, 2009

Brand New Eyes

Now that I'm home from traveling the world, I'm going to have to find things to write about. I knew I was going to run into this problem when I created this thing, so bare with me. I guess I'll just tell you whats been going on lately.

Where to start? I got home from Australia, and within 24 hours, I was back on a plane. I was off to Atlanta, GA this time. I planned to spend the weekend with my old roommate who I haven't seen in over a year. Well, it didn't really work out that way. Her car broke down and she had no way to get me from the airport. She lives in Chattanooga, TN but it was cheaper to fly into Atlanta so I just did that. Luckily I have a friend that I went to high school with that is going to law school there so I just stayed with her all weekend. We ate at some delicious breakfast places and I spent most of my time in bed trying to catch up on sleep. The adjustment from Australia is way harder on the way back. I was sleeping at 10am till 5pm. Staying up all night just to fall asleep at 6am. It was the worst. But I did have an amazing Australian girl to keep me company.

So the Atlanta trip was a bust to say the least. I did see Love Happens while I was there which was a really good movie. Very depressing, but I'm weird and seem to like those kinds of stories. Other than that, nothing really happened. I came back to Florida on Sunday night and went straight to bed for once. It was weird. I thought I was going to be able to get back on schedule after that, but I was wrong. More of the same the next day. Staying up all night. That lasted all week. Luckily I didn't have to go back to work yet. I would've been dead. I'm still waiting on work now. My boss has been in California for over a week but apparently he will be back tomorrow. I had another job opportunity that was really good, but the ability to tour freely isn't there and I don't think I'm ready to just give up such a big part of my life like that yet. So we will see what happens. I should be going back to work within the next couple days. I feel like I'm finally back on schedule with the sleep pattern too so that should work out well.

Last week was mostly spent in bed, I didn't really get up to do anything because I was either too tired or just didn't have much to do. I ventured out to hang out with a couple friends one night at like 3am. But nothing really happened. I think it was Thursday that I actually had a life again. I went out to lunch with my friend Ryann to Tiajuana Flats. My tiny friend Cori was on her lunch break and just happened to be going there as well so the 3 of us enjoyed the awesome mexican food that that place has to offer. After that I came back home to a little person sleeping in my bed. She's very cute when she sleeps. I went to dinner with her and my family at Bru's Room in Coral Springs. Our waitress was English and had an awesome accent. She was also gorgeous. I think I have a thing for beautiful girls with foreign accents now. I had band practice with My Complex Island for the first time in over a month after that and it was a lot of fun. It felt good to play drums after a week of not doing that, and it was amazing that we didn't really skip a beat. We sounded like we didn't even stop playing for a month. So that was a relief.

Friday was interesting. I was planning on going to a show in Miami. I picked up my friend Nicole from boca, drove all the way down there, paid to get into the show, called my friend whose band I went to see, only to find out that they had dropped off the show 10 minutes earlier. I didn't get my money back. Me and Nicole headed up to The Talent Farm to catch Forty Winters and see a couple friends. It was good seeing people I haven't seen since before I left. I drove Nicole back to Miami and made the 45 minute drive back home. I met up with some friends and just hung out for a little before I headed home and went to sleep.

Saturday I woke up and had breakfast with Mike C, Mean Pete, and John Warden. We ate at this place in Boca called First Watch that was recommended by Audra. It was pretty good. Sounded like a health clinic by the name, but the food was alright. I might go back sometime. After that we stopped over at Duffy's for a few minutes. Then I headed to Ale House in Fort Lauderdale to watch the Miami Hurricanes game with my dad, brother, cousin, and Josiah. We lost. Not much to say about that. It was embarrassing after all the hype we were getting, but I knew it was too soon to be saying everything that the media was. In the first 2 weeks we just faced 2 teams that sucked. Sorry, but FSU is terrible this year, and GT isn't much better. We were just the better team on those days. I think that Miami is getting there, maybe we will play for the ACC championship this year, but National Championship hopes should be held off another year or 2.

After the game, I went bowling with some people for John Warden's birthday. He pretty much claimed the whole weekend as his birthday. I was going to go home and go to sleep after that but as soon as I got in bed I got a call from my friend Michelle asking me to come night swim. I couldn't pass up the opportunity seeing as I haven't seen her in months. So I did that for a little. She dropped her phone in the pool. And that was how the night ended.

Sunday I had family over. My 2 little brothers made an appearance. I taught them some stuff on the drums. They are 3 and 5. So you can just imagine how interesting that was. I went to John Warden's birthday dinner at La Bamba and then rushed over to Talent Farm to see New City Lions. I came home after that and just went to bed.

Tonight I think I'm going to Duffy's in Boca to watch the Dallas Cowboys game with a few friends. I'll probably be the only one watching the game seeing as hardly any of my friends like sports. Oh well. I've been following them all since I was a kid. I played basketball for all my elementary, middle, and some of my high school years. I also played a little baseball when I was way younger but I didn't like it as much. I hated getting hit by the ball. I think after I got hit right in the groin one time I called it quits. I knew that I could not risk damaging the goods seeing as I would need them later on in life. Very smart decision if you ask me.

Well thats really all thats been going on lately. I've met some new people since I got home and I'm really happy about that. I want to make more friends. Its just hard sometimes because some people take things the wrong way. Talking to a girl automatically means you are trying to sleep with them. Although that may be the case a lot of the time, its not with me. I really am just trying to branch out and meet new people. The male species has ruined the ability to gain a girls trust. There are so many dickheads out there that just wanna get laid and screw girls over so it makes us genuine guys look bad before we even begin talking. I'll admit when I was younger, I made some mistakes. I haven't always thought the way I do now, but it takes losing the best thing that ever happened to you to wake up and grow up. I did. So I look at life a completely different way now.

I wish that people took more time to get to know someone before they judged them. I hate being written off because I'm a guy. Well I should say, a man. Apparently girls these days like guys that look like girls. I don't have stupid hair, I don't wear pants that suffocate my balls, I don't wear t-shirts that were made for babies, and I don't have a bunch of stupid piercings in my face. That automatically makes me not worth the time I guess. Even when I'm just trying to be nice and get to know someone with absolutely no intention of anything. Right now I'm stuck. My heart and mind want 2 different things. I wish I was able to say that I'm ready to meet someone new and see what could happen, but I don't think I'm fully there yet. I've been in the same position for almost 6 months now and it really sucks. I care about someone a lot, but I know that she will never look at me the way I look at her. We have been back and forth for a long time, but to her, its just not enough to take the chance. I have done everything possible to try and get her to see it, but I guess its never going to be enough. I know that I need to move on, its just hard when you've invested so much into one person. But its gone on long enough.

I think I've wasted enough of your time for today. I don't know when I'll update again. Maybe I'll make a post with some pictures from my travels or just pictures in general. I don't know. I guess we'll see in time.

Friday, September 25, 2009

Australia

Well apparently this update has been much anticipated. I've been asked all week when I was going to write about Australia and I finally found the time to sit, rather lay, and write it. So here it is, Australia.

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xBishopx Street (I swear we didn't do this ourselves)

Our first day in Australia was September 8th. Of course, when flying with Jetstar, our flights were messed up. Our original flight to Gold Coast was cancelled and we had to fly into Cairnes and then to Sydney. Once in Sydney we met up with Blood Sport which was the band we would be spending our tour in Australia with. We were also accompanied by Shay and Ollie, who were our driver and tour guide. 11 dudes in a van for a 8 days. It was going to be interesting. We left the airport and hit Newtown. Apparently vegan food is hard to find in Australia. There were some record stores which of course we had to stop at, burger places, pizza joints, and a few asian places. We ate Burger Fuel which was really good but a little over priced. We soon found that everything in Australia is over priced. Water bottles ended up being about 2 dollars in U.S. dollars. I have to admit though, Australia has some of the coolest looking money I've seen. Its all colorful and even has little parts of it that are see-through. After Newtown we made our first long drive to Brisbane. It took us like 12 hours or something. I tried to sleep but sleeping in the van was a mission and it took all of us a couple days to get a floor plan set up that had everyone with their own sleeping spot. We got to Brisbane pretty early in the morning after driving over night. We had beds set up for us thanks to Sam from Time Has Come. It was nice to sleep for a few hours.

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The Famous Van

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Blood Sport

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Shay (The Driver)

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Ollie (The Tour Guide)

We headed to our first show after that which was an hour away. It was one of the best shows of the tour. We played with some big band from Australia so a lot of people were at the show. We went back to Sam's after that and stayed there. The next day we went to the Koala Zoo in Brisbane. It was probably the highlight of our trip. A lot of famous people have been to that place and their pictures are up all over the walls in the gift shop. We got in for free because we were a band from America and they took our pictures with the Koalas and are putting them up on the wall too. We got to walk around a huge open field with Kangaroos just hanging out that you could feed and pet. We took pictures with those too. After that we went to our next show which was at a Club. It was weird because the club was split into 2 areas. On one side there was some kid blasting some of the worst mosh metal I've ever heard. I'm sure there were like 10 Emmure songs played, probably some Devil Wears Prada, pure garbage. Every once in a while he would throw in some good stuff, but it was torture nonetheless. On the other side of the wall they were playing dance music. It was funny because inbetween the bands playing you could hear the other music playing. After the show a bunch of people went next door to dance and it was pretty entertaining.

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Koala saying hi

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My Kangaroo Friend

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Just hangin' with our mates

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Koala kisses

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Koala eating

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Bishop loves Koalas

After that show we made another long drive back to Sydney. More Newtown the next day. This time we ventured to a place called Burgerlicious. It was so good. Definitely my favorite food spot in Sydney. I believe that was the day we played 2 shows in one day. Australia has a lot of laws when it comes to shows. They either have to be All ages with no alcohol being served, over 18 only, or under 18 only. So we played one all ages and then one 18 and over at a club down the street. The first one was at a pub-ish kind of place but it had a big theater in the room next to the pub that we played in. The best part about it was that there was a kitchen in the back of the venue that made these huge steaks. Levi from Blood Sport treated me to one and it was delicious. Probably the best non fast food meal I had all of tour. After that show we drove down the street to play at another interesting venue. Three stories, on the middle floor is where we played, on the bottom floor they played some weird dance metal goth I dont even know. The people that were walking down there were interesting to say the least. I dont know what was on the top floor but Im sure it was more of the same weirdness.

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Bishop @ Snitch Nightclub, Brisbane, Australia

We drove to Melbourne after that show, another long over nighter. We made it into the city with just enough time to stop at Lord of the Fries which was a vegan burger place. They had a bunch of good stuff there. Burgers, Fake Chicken Nuggets, Fries, all which had special sauces that you could choose from that were amazing. I got a burger and fries with the BBQ sauce. But I tried some of everyone elses stuff which was good too. We drove to the show which was in Mt. Eliza. At least thats what I think it was called. I shaved my head and monster beard off in the dressing room of the Venue with some help from Knotty from Blood Sport. When I was all done and cleaned up I came into the front room of the huge hall that we were playing at and my jaw hit the floor. There she was, the love of my life, well at least the one for the Australia tour. She was gorgeous. She was small which was cute and she had the most beautiful face I had seen in forever. When she talked my heart melted. Australians have the most amazing accents and when you find an attractive female, which isnt hard because they are all over, it just makes the accent that much more sexy. So anyway after much courtship, I found out her name and got her info and that was it. I didnt get to talk to her, I only had 1 night in that area so there was nothing I could do. We tried to get her to come hang out in the city the next day but she couldn't. So that was the only chance I got to see her. But I have kept in contact with her since then and we are good friends now. Hopefully when we go back there I can make her my wife and bring her back to the states. All jokes aside though, Chloe Woods, whatever Australian guy ends up with you is going to be a very lucky man.

The next day we hit up Lord of the Fries again and a couple stores downtown. Hung out with Holly who was a great tour guide and helped us find all of the places because Ollie was not on his A-game that day. We were supposed to play 2 shows again in that day but the first show was cancelled so we only played the one. It was the last show of the tour and it was fun. We had our final goodbyes to the Blood Sport boys and ate some Mackers as a fairwell dinner. Oh I forgot to mention, Australians have slang words for everything. Mackers is McDonalds, Hungrys is Hungry Jacks which is the name of Burger King over there, Keffers is KFC. They also have words like suss, keen, and heaps which they use all the time. We would make fun of each other for how we talked and said certain words. By the end of the tour, we were all close friends.

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Berry Cheesecake

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Thats the ocean

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Last show of tour

So after that we made another long drive back to Sydney again. We had 2 days there before we flew back to the states. The first day we went to Newtown and ate, and then we went to Luna Park and took some band promos. The next day we went Downtown and to the Opera house and took more band promos. Chucky from Sixlip was kind enough to hook us up with those. We stayed at Dan Misztals house those 2 nights and then we got dropped off at the airport the next morning. Of course, more travel complications, but everything got taken care of. We got on a Delta plane which we all had our own TV screens and got to watch whatever we wanted. I watched 5 movies on the way to L.A. Once in L.A. we dropped off Pete and Dual Dave because they were staying there for a few days and me, Sam, and Derek continued on. We had a 4 hour layover there and then flew to Detroit and then finally got home to Fort Lauderdale that night. It was a 23 hour travel day. Not fun. But Audra and John Warden picked us up from the airport, short one bag of luggage that was left in Detroit and had to be delivered the next day, just to add to the travel problems we had throughout the tour. But all in all it was amazing. I loved Australia and I can't wait to go back. We are planning a world tour within the next couple years and that will definitely be one of the spots we hit. I will be looking forward to it.

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Bishop @ The Sydney Opera House

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In front of a wall

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Luna Park

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On a bench

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My glamour shot in front of the Sydney Opera House

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Japan

I just spent the last week and a half in the most amazing place in this world, Japan. My band had the opportunity to come over here and tour the country for a couple weeks. Its a life changing experience. The way of life is so much different here, the people are so much more polite and respectful. Its such a peaceful place. I wish I never had to go back to the U.S. but unfortunately I do. I thought I was going to have something to come home to, but things change really quickly. I now am returning to nothing. Its devistating, but thats life. Its not the first time I've been let down, and I'm sure it won't be the last. But all I can do is learn to stop putting so much into things that will eventually fade. I'm not going to be bitter, I'm not going to be upset, I'm just going to take what I can from the situation and learn from my mistakes. And there isn't a better place to reflect on those things than here, in this amazing country.

We got here on August 27th. A 4 hour flight to Detroit, which ended up being a flight to Toledo, because our plane couldnt land right away in Detroit cause of weather, and we didnt have enough gas to make circles, so we landed in Toledo, refueled, and took back off to Detroit. After landing in Detroit, only to discover that we had missed our Original flight to Japan, we had to take a later flight. So after a 3 hour layover, we were finally on our way. We landed in Nariita, Japan mid-afternoon, after a "25 hour flight" according to this lady on the plane who we still make that joke about. It was only a 13 hour flight in reality, but she somehow did the math on her own and came up with the idea that we would be on the plane for 25 hours. Still hilarious to think about. We got picked up after going through a very short customs, by Tohru, our Japanese driver/tour guide/tour manager, and Dicekay, thats probably not how you spell it, but it sounds like that. We got in our huge van that they had rented for the couple weeks we were there, and took off for food. We ended up at a sushi spot that had conveyor belts full of sushi. I was never a fan of sushi, but I knew that it was going to be a huge part of this trip so I started to try things, and to my surprise, I enjoyed it. After we ate, we were trying to figure out how long it was going to take us to get to the house we were staying at. The language barrier provided us with the answer of "8 minutes". We were in the van for 4 hours. 8 minutes = 4 hours in Japan I guess, this was something we were going to have to work on. We slept on little mattresses on the floors, as you'd expect, shoes came off everywhere after you walked through the front door, as far as houses and hotels go.

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Tohru

Our first show was at a practice studio. It was still a lot of fun. We went back to Tohru's after and stayed there one more night, having to wake up at 5am the next moring to head to Tokyo for the 2 day fest we were playing. Pulling into Tokyo 5 hours later, we hit traffic. There is a lot of construction going on there, and driving is crazy. Think of New York, but 5 times busier. There are side streets everywhere with things you would never imagine to be hidden in them. We played at Club Asia which is hidden in the middle of a bunch of side streets. The club was huge. And there were a lot of people there. We got to hang out with The Acacia Strain dudes for the next 2 days and we had a blast. Practical jokes were played and it was just an all around awesome experience. To our surprise, we stayed in Hotel rooms every night. Tohru spoiled us way too much. He wouldnt take our money for anything. It felt really nice and welcoming to be taken care of the way we were. We went to a castle or monument of some sort almost everyday. We saw such amazing things throughout the trip. A golden temple, some ancient castles, we stopped in Hiroshima and saw the memorial there, We did some shopping all over, we were constantly busy. It took me a while to start enjoying myself because a big part of me was still thinking about back home, but after I finally decided that I should appreciate this trip and let things play out when I got home, I took in everything we saw and it was an amazing experience. Even riding in the van just looking at the beautiful mountain ranges, the tunnels and small towns in between the mountains, the big city buildings, and even watching the people, how peaceful they were, the way they rode their bikes. It was amazing. Every show we played was better and better. The people were so welcoming. Even though they hardly spoke english, they knew our songs and sang along. It is an amazing feeling to know that your art is appreciated on the opposite side of the world. Its kind of shocking to think about. I cant pick out one highlight of the trip that was my favorite, we did so many things. But all of it was amazing. I took a lot of pictures. I didnt have much money to buy things, so I made due with what I could.

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Bloodaxe Fest, Tokyo, Japan

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The Acacia Strain @ Bloodaxe Fest, Tokyo, Japan

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Bishop, The Acacia Strain, Maroon, Loyal To The Grave

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Osaka Castle

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Hiroshima Memorial

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At a Rest Stop

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The Golden Temple

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Temple

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Bridge in a Garden

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That Guy Statue

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Niigata Stadium

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Intersection in Tokyo

Overall, this trip will be something I remember for the rest of my life. I hope we have the opportunity to come back here one day. Sooner than later. I am now dreading the return home. Im torn because I do miss it, but at the same time, Im going back to a place that will open up thoughts and memories that will hurt to think about. I dont know what is going to happen, I dont know what life will bring me, and Im honestly scared. I just want to stay happy like I am now, but I know I probably wont. I dont have anything to look forward to really once I get home. Part of me wants to believe that everything will be ok like it always has been. But it feels different this time. It really feels like its over. And maybe thats for the best. I know that I will be ok. I just wish I didnt have to try so hard to feel that way. Its going to be hard, but I can do it.

Luckily, I have a week in Austrailia before I have to deal with reality again. Please make this last.

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Introduction

So I've never been much of a writer, never had the time, or the attention span to actually sit down and write all my thoughts onto a blog or journal. I usually write pointless Myspace bulletins that vaguely describe how I'm feeling or what I'm thinking. It was my only outlet until this. I figured Livejournal is pretty outdated so why not. I'm sure if you are actually going to take the time to read this, you probably already know me. But for those of you who don't, My name is Peter Vazquez, I'm a 23 year old Cuban-American, even though I probably look middle-eastern whenever I don't shave. Both my parents were born in Cuba, but met here in the states. I was born in Fort Lauderdale, FL, in 1986. I've lived in South Florida all of my life, mostly Broward County, but I have ventured up to Palm Beach, and Dade. Right now I currently live in Coral Springs, hopefully not much longer than till the end of this year. I need to move more North because I work in West Palm Beach. I've worked for Red Bull Energy Drink for the past 2 years. Distributing product, delivering coolers, doing warehouse stuff, things of that nature. As I write this, I'm on tour with my band in Japan. Yeah, Japan. I've been playing drums since the age of 4 and it is safe to say that it is my life. If I didn't have this, I don't know where my life would've ended up. So I guess thats where I'll start the introduction into my life.

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Bishop @ Solid Sound Studios, Pompano Beach, FL

I got my first drumset when I was 4 years old. It was one of those mini ones with the paper heads that I probably broke after a week of banging rhythmlessly like Animal from Sesame Street. Not long after I got my first Junior kit. I took lessons for about a month when I was 5 but I don't remember anything I learned. It cost too much money and I probably wasnt into it so my parents stop taking me. It wasn't till probably middle school that I started playing seriously. I joined my first band in 8th grade, "Bonus Room". Worst band name ever and we played one song over and over, not an original and I'm too ashamed to say what it was. But a couple months later me and the guitarist, who was the only other member of the band, found a singer, who eventually picked up bass, and we became Something From Nothing. That band lasted a couple years through high school and then we disbanded when we all started to have different musical tastes and wanted to do other things. I was in a bunch of bands after that, trying to find where I fit well. The only one that actually did anything worth mentioning was The Big Screen. I recorded my first full length album with them and did a bunch of U.S. tours. It was fun, but faded out when we got older, families started, members moved to different states. Not long after that I joined the current band I'm in now, Bishop, or as we are commonly known, xBishopx. You are not supposed to pronounce the x's, but people do. I laugh. I've been in this band longer than probably any other band I've ever been in. It has helped me see things and go place that I would have never gotten the chance to see if I hadn't been involved with it. For instance, We did some U.S. touring, Costa Rica, now I'm in Japan, and I'm going to Austrailia from here. Its kind of surreal. But I am thankful for the once in a lifetime opportunities I have been given. Who I am thankful to...well thats still something I am trying to figure out myself.

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The Big Screen @ Sportsplex, Coral Springs, FL

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Veritas @ Some bar in Stuart, FL (with Dale Jr. Obviously)

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Bishop in Costa Rica (With Mike C, and Derek Zipp)

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Vultures @ Goo, Miami, FL

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My Complex Island

Religion has never been a huge thing to me. As a kid I was forced to go to church, but never to Catholic school or anything that serious. My parents gave up after so many Sunday morning temper tantrums about not wanting to go. For a while, I considered a lot of things, I didn't believe in God, didn't follow a religion, didn't really care. I never wanted the choice to be forced on me. A couple years ago while touring with some of my best friends, I got turned on to some books. They were interesting, still nothing to change my mind on any of it, but they opened my eyes up a little. It wasn't till I went through a rough spot, where I felt I had nothing left to try, that I gave God a chance. My girlfriend at the time had a very religious mother who I still keep in contact with and I will always care for deeply, who prayed for me and helped me through a lot of things. I still don't follow a religion, but I do believe there is a God. As far as Jesus and all that, still undecided on that subject. It doesn't help that whenever you open up to the idea, you have people around you making you feel like you're an idiot. But when I figure it out, I won't change my views for anyone.

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Straight Edge

I don't want this part to be long, or preachy, because I know that most people that have the same views that I do, usually preach, and are dicks about it. But I'm not like them. I hate being grouped in with them also. They are the reason that this "lifestyle" has gone to shit. With that said, I am Straight Edge. I think saying that is so fucking retarded, but its easier than explaining that I don't smoke, drink, do drugs, and I don't sleep around. But saying that I'm edge automatically puts a label on me, and I'm judged, because a bunch of other idiots have ruined it for me. It has become a joke, and it has also made the few of us that actually do it correctly, look like a bunch of fakes. People will claim and then within a week be snorting coke off some table at some party, or drinking some form of alcohol while trying to bang some slutty broad they met the same day. Its ridiculous, and it makes me look like I will just turn into one of them. Well I've been this way since 2001. 9th grade of high school. I have my reasons as to why I live this way. Not ones that I feel the need to broadcast across the internet. But I do this for myself, because I choose to. I do not judge anyone for what they do. I do not try to force my beliefs on anyone else. Basically, I am not what people have come to think that being Straight Edge is. But I won't be one of those people that stops saying I am, just because of what other people have turned it into. I still have my beliefs and I will always live my life for me.

As for everything else, I guess there isn't much to it. I have to be thankful I'm alive. You never know what can happen. I'd like to say that I've lived life to the fullest with no regrets, but that would be a lie. I live everyday with some form of regret. Mostly the mistakes I've made.

I've been in love only once. I know this for a fact because it has been years and I still think about the person everyday. We were engaged, and it was the best time of my life, well, the good parts of it. I messed it up though. Being the idiot I am, I thought too much, and had my doubts, and made mistakes that I wish I could take back. Thats life. I feel like I've learned from those mistakes, but it sucked that I had to lose the only thing I've ever been sure of in my whole life. There have been a couple other times where I felt like I could be in love again, but compared to her, they were nothing. Only recently have I felt myself starting to feel that strongly for someone again. Its been a rollercoaster, but I haven't felt like this since, "The One". So maybe this will be my second chance. If I can get it to work. Somehow I always seem to mess it up, or I'm just not good enough. But for some reason, this one has stuck around and put up with my shit. And everyday I feel myself getting closer to that feeling. I don't know if its the same for her, but at times it seems like it, and then again, at times we want to kill each other. But isn't that how it works? The more you care about someone, the more chances they have to disappoint you, but if you love them, you deal with it and make it work. So I guess thats what we are trying to do, and though right now, we are in a rough spot, I know that if its meant to be, it will work out. I have to get back to the United States before that can even begin to be figured out. If you are reading this, you know who you are, I love you and miss you immensly, and most of all, I'm sorry for being a pain in the ass.

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"The One"

I have some of the best friends in the world. Some of them don't live close to me, and it sucks that I don't get to see them that much, but I still love them all. They all have helped me out in times of need and I am forever thankful to them all. Hopefully when I get back I can make the trips to see them, Tallahassee, Orlando, and all over the U.S. Money is gonna be tight for the first couple weeks when I get home though, So I'll have to see.

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Friends in Miami

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Friends On Tour

I think we are about to pack up and head out of the place we are staying so I should probably end this now. I've probably bored you enough with this pointless information. But hey, if you made it this far, thank you, and I hope you enjoy the rest.

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Me.